Finally it’s Friday!!! Thank God! It has been an incredibly long week for me and it seems I’m going to have an even longer weekend. I have to drive my folks to Lake Charles for a funeral, which I’m not too happy about. But today I’m going to the casino to spend a lil money, about $40 then, I call it a wrap. After I come back from the funeral I plan on going to the movies to see Wanted with a good friend of mine.
I’ve still been feeling down since my last post. I don’t know why I let things bother me so much. In my high school days, I was able to let people go and go on about my business. But as of lately I’ve been real emotional and my feelings get hurt easily. I don’t cry or anything, it’s very hard for me to cry. But, I get real down and out and I don’t feel like doing anything at all. This all started after I was raped I believe. So, now I’m getting real personal.
I was 20 years old and a virgin. Something very precious was taken from me, that’ll I’ll NEVER get back. Maybe I should go to counseling or something to deal with this matter but I’m afraid they’ll try to medicate me or w/e. -Sighs- When I was 17 years old, I had my life planned out so beautifully but a few incidents changed all that and I feel so lost in this world. I’m going to keep faith in God, maybe He has something good for me :).
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Counseling isn’t a bad idea. I tried it. It helped me out alot. Letting things out to someone who doesn’t THINK they know you is a good step. You wont be finish with one session but you will break the ice.
I been in this situation already.
I kept it a secret for years.
I’m sorry that you had to go through so much. I agree with Kay, you should definitely see about getting counseling. It may help you a lot.
I am so glad I stumbled upon this post. Girl you should definitely consider counseling, because NOTHING is wrong with that. Freshman year I HAD to go to counseling I found out my father was dying and my boyfriend was cheating all in the same weekend. Things can be so devastating you need an outlet, someone else to talk to.
I know how you feel about how it used to be this way in high school. I had that conversation with my older sister back in April, when my bf & I broke up for a few days. I was just sooooo torn up. It really sucked and all I could think of was how I wish I didn’t give a fuck, like I used to in High School. But my sister told me that was high school for a reason and I’ve grown since then. Which is true, but it still sucks!
I really do hope that you definitely check out counseling. If you don’t feel comfortable about them suggesting medications you can just tell them that. They aren’t going to MAKE you do anything you don’t want to do. Good luck.