Hey Everybody. I have been neglecting this site terribly. I’ve been going through a lot as of lately, working and things that’s been going on in my life. I’ve been feeling down and just trying to get past this little phase in my life.

I’ve noticed that in any of my relationships, I tend to care more about that person than they care for me. I make myself available for people whenever they need me, I’m always there, but when I need someone there’s no one to be found. People totally do not understand me at all, I am a very loving and caring person and I’ve been through a lot: I’ve been raped, beaten, cheated on, treated like shit, just to name a few. I’ve tried not to let my past situations get the best of me and turn me into a hateful and/or mean person. But when the same shit keeps happening to me over and over, I’ve come to the conclusion that maybe it’s me. Maybe I expect too much of the human race and I expect everyone to be as kind hearted as I am. Sometimes I go through phases where I’m a complete ass to people and then I turn around and apologize because I know it’s not my character. I’m very misunderstood, that’s the main reason why I fly solo.